21th January 2011

Today my finger injured. My right middle finger injured. When i put a bowl on table sudden my hand bleeding. But im so confuse, why sudden bleeding, i checked the bowl don't have any break. Lucky not so pain. Today also received a new friend request in facebook. He wrote that he also got epilepsy. Finally, got a new friend also got same problem with me add me as a friend. Song long time already im waiting someone that can share the same problem with me..

20th January 2011

Long time didn't open my blog. Time really pass so fast, suddenly already 2011..Today is Thaipusam, I still remember, When i was young, i stay at my shop infront the road, every night when Thaipusam sure i'll open my window when i heard a very noisy sound. Saw a car full of colourful light, it look so nice and got a lots of indian's man singing, dancing and shouting and sometimes i see they really look like a monkey.. But the most ugly is the man who pulling the car. So dizzy when i saw they backside, so now i don like to c it anymore.. They really didn't feel pain?? That time they still fresh o already blur?? Really don't understand why. My friend said he will join it, so i'll ask him after the Thaipusam what's his feeling that time.. He asked me to see him, aiyee.. so ugly. I won't go. Thaipusam not so interested for me, but Chinese New Year almost come already. This year fell the CNY really come so fast. Anything also still not ready yet. CNY clothes also still not buy yet, need to waiting someone come back to accompany me go to buy it..

cooking

this few week everyday also need to cook. Father just do d cataract operation so mom need to take care dad and my turn to take care grandma. if I din cook dont know who cook for her.. what I want to cook tomorrow? always cook the same food so boring

Suffer..

God... I'm so suffer now.. Everyday also want me to face the painfulness. After my heart now turn to my neck.. So pain so pain.. Today my left neck sudden fell so pain. Now i feel my right neck also start pain.. Don't know because of what problem.. Just sitting on the chair my neck also will pain. Please don let me suffer anymore. My body already full of medicine, i don want to add more and more.. I don want the medicine will become my daily food. I want to stop it.. Please God please help me.. I wish tomorrow when i wake up, all the painful will go away from me.. May God bless me..

quarrel quarrel.. always quarrel..!!

really feel stress when saw my parent argue.. don't know why stay together also like that now not everyday meet also will like that. sometimes look they happy I'll feel happy too. but sure got 1 day will quarrel. maybe this already is their hobbies. no quarrel will feel boring. C them quarrel I think the most angry one is me. saw likes that I really felt want to scold them. scold also no use, sure the problem will happen again, better don't want to care them. I hope it wont happen in my future life.

Why?

Why i always like that? Why something that i not suppose to do i still want to do it..?? If i still like that, it will only make myself more pain and sad.. Hope i can find somebody to share the problem with me, but i didn't fine it.. I don want to let too much of people know bout this prob.. If they know i still like that, they will say im so stupid.. Just hope i can settle it myself..

Sick..

Sick again.. Don't know why every month also will sick. Always same, flu, cough and sore throat.. Already wasted few box of tissue and few roll of toilet paper.. now the dustbin full of 'wantan'.. God.. please help me oooo.... I don't want every month also need to face the sick..