3rd June 2011

Sleep late but wake up bit early. need go to hospital to take medicine.

A hot day, really so hot today. Back from hospital go shopping a while. came back home just continue my work.

felt so tired and sleepy so just go take a nap. listen song while sleeping. After feel hour i sudden wake up when i heard a song "waiting for you". suddenly my tears start flowed. That's the song that i always sing when i'm miss him. Continue a song ”你不知道我为什么离开你“, my tears flowed much and much more. I think, i really don't know why he wan break with me.. really what he said is true?? Again another song ”你怎么舍得我难过“... Shit...!!! suddenly 3 sad song came out.. Finally just close it. can't sleep anymore, just lay on my bed and think a lots. Why i still want to think something that i'm not suppose to think..

01 June 2011

I'm getting better. I feel that i can start to put it down my sadness. People who help me so much is my friends. I feel so happy this few day. 2 friend sudden called me. I know they call me because want to advice me. Lucky i still can joke and still can feeling happy when talk with them. Not same like somebody that will cry when they chat with friend about their sad problem. I already can accept everything.

Start planning about my future. After i fully recover and no need take my medicine anymore, what should i do? Study, work, continue sit at home to help my parent to look after the shop or just waiting for marry? I think i should learn something to get more experince. Really so hard to think what's suitable for me. need much more time to plan it. I think still got a long time for me to stop the medicine, so i still have a lots of times to plan.