23rd January 2011

Woke up at 3am to go toilet, when i open my room's door, wow... i saw a lots of mouse one ran to right side, one to left and upside also got. They look like gathering for meeting when i'm sleeping. Saw the bun on my table lost already. So angry. Now all the mouse in my house really so clever already, want catch them also hard.. Don't want to put the mouse's poison cause if they dead my house will become so smelly.. Just try others..

This morning, wake up on 10am. Went shopping with my Mother. Bought many thing. Almost all also is food. When I'm waiting my Dad to fetch me, sudden a handsome guy came to talk with me. For what?? Just want to introduce me to open the bank AmAssurance's saving plan. Explains explains and explains, see my Dad still not come yet, just listen what he say. Last he ask my name and contact number. I gave him, but the hp number is my old number.. Money also don't have how to open. Come find the poor girl, wasted his saliva.. Maybe i told him that my family open a liquor shop so he though that i'm a rich girl.. so wish one day i really can be a rich girl.. God bless me...

22nd January 2011

Wake up so late today. This morning from 1am lay till 5am only can sleep. So today wake up around 2pm more. So lazy today, but still need to work. Yesterday night, chat with a new friend from facebook who also have a same epilepsy problem with me. So sad to heard that his seizures happen is because of his brain problem. His brain got a tube. So unlucky, after operation his seizures still attack him every month. I heard Doctor and got many information said if the epilepsy problem is cause of brain, after the surgery the seizures will complete recover and become normal. But so unlucky, he's the different one. He said sometimes he ask himself, why im given this??? actually, this question also a same question that i ever ask myself. But nobody can answer it, only the GOD know. I'm more lucky cause my problem now already in well controlled. So the medicine must always accompany me, if i forgot take it, sure the seizures will attack cause before i ever tried it. Already 8 years I'm living in this epilepsy life. 8 years really pass so fast. from study till now and now till which one day my problem can fully recover. Some said that epilepsy cannot recover, the medicine I'm taking just for control my seizures. But i get some information that if the problem is not from family, one day it will recover but it need time. Just let the time pass..

Wish in this 2011 all also going well. In this year i didn't feel any different. No feeling that already new year. This year I didn't plan anything. Every year planned also the same. All the problem happen just not same in what i planned. Hope can keep money but don't know where all the money gone in the end..??? finish used also forgot.

Anyway, just wish this year me, whole family, friends and others will be more healthy, happy, lucky, wealthy and prosperity.. All goes well.. (*o*)/

21th January 2011

Today my finger injured. My right middle finger injured. When i put a bowl on table sudden my hand bleeding. But im so confuse, why sudden bleeding, i checked the bowl don't have any break. Lucky not so pain. Today also received a new friend request in facebook. He wrote that he also got epilepsy. Finally, got a new friend also got same problem with me add me as a friend. Song long time already im waiting someone that can share the same problem with me..

20th January 2011

Long time didn't open my blog. Time really pass so fast, suddenly already 2011..Today is Thaipusam, I still remember, When i was young, i stay at my shop infront the road, every night when Thaipusam sure i'll open my window when i heard a very noisy sound. Saw a car full of colourful light, it look so nice and got a lots of indian's man singing, dancing and shouting and sometimes i see they really look like a monkey.. But the most ugly is the man who pulling the car. So dizzy when i saw they backside, so now i don like to c it anymore.. They really didn't feel pain?? That time they still fresh o already blur?? Really don't understand why. My friend said he will join it, so i'll ask him after the Thaipusam what's his feeling that time.. He asked me to see him, aiyee.. so ugly. I won't go. Thaipusam not so interested for me, but Chinese New Year almost come already. This year fell the CNY really come so fast. Anything also still not ready yet. CNY clothes also still not buy yet, need to waiting someone come back to accompany me go to buy it..

cooking

this few week everyday also need to cook. Father just do d cataract operation so mom need to take care dad and my turn to take care grandma. if I din cook dont know who cook for her.. what I want to cook tomorrow? always cook the same food so boring

Suffer..

God... I'm so suffer now.. Everyday also want me to face the painfulness. After my heart now turn to my neck.. So pain so pain.. Today my left neck sudden fell so pain. Now i feel my right neck also start pain.. Don't know because of what problem.. Just sitting on the chair my neck also will pain. Please don let me suffer anymore. My body already full of medicine, i don want to add more and more.. I don want the medicine will become my daily food. I want to stop it.. Please God please help me.. I wish tomorrow when i wake up, all the painful will go away from me.. May God bless me..

quarrel quarrel.. always quarrel..!!

really feel stress when saw my parent argue.. don't know why stay together also like that now not everyday meet also will like that. sometimes look they happy I'll feel happy too. but sure got 1 day will quarrel. maybe this already is their hobbies. no quarrel will feel boring. C them quarrel I think the most angry one is me. saw likes that I really felt want to scold them. scold also no use, sure the problem will happen again, better don't want to care them. I hope it wont happen in my future life.