29th May 2011

Almost 4 month i didn't open my blog. Today sudden feel want to write something. This month got 3 special day for me, 1st May is my 3rd year anniversary with bf, felt so happy that day because he came back from Singapore that day. 24th may is my birthday. Although nobody celebrate my birthday but still got a lots of friends wished me happy birthday and 1 day after my birthday 25 May really is a very special day for me that never happen in my life before. My bf want break with me. I really felt that's a big birthday's present that he gave me. That days i really don't know how i want to face it. very surprise.. Never think he'll talk like that to me. The reason that he gave me is he said he not able to take care of me, said himself don't have future ask me to find another man who better than him and got more powerful to take care of me. I ever kidding, said i want him to married me before i'm 26 years old, so he said he can't do it. I told him if i really love him no matter after 26 or no need to married me, i also will still together with him, but don't know why what i said also can't make him change his mind. He still want to do it. I can't do anything, really don't know what should i say. just accepted. I really don't know either his reason is true or not. But if he said that's true i'll believe him. If he still love me why he think that he can't take care of me in his future. If the love is true, sure he will try his best to make his future become better. Why he didn't do like that but just want to give up??? Maybe he really cannot take care of me because i'm a patient..???